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Puta Madre Brothers – It’s a Long Long Way To Meximotown

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Bear Love

you have a power on me

Incredible.

I don’t know what she is saying but i just like looking and listening to her. Beauty.

Shades of Grey

Apparently as adolescents we see things in polar opposites, every situation is either viewed as black or white. Extremist thinking at its best – running a riot in our young, impressionable heads. I tend to believe I am predisposed to this kind of thinking regardless of my age. The life long lesson of accepting things in “many shades of grey” has been the bane of my existence for a while now. It poses many problems for me, seeing as balance is usually the best way to go.

I can’t even tell you how many freak-outs I have had in regards to my inability to accept the grey and not stick to one side of the extreme. There were the fitness regimes where I was either acting like Gillian from the Biggest Loser working out 2 hours a day and eating carrot sticks OR the other end of the extreme, slothing on the couch eating a bag of mnms not remembering the last time I went to the gym. Then there were my various excessive goals where i ended up putting way too much pressure on myself – I was either busting my balls trying to achieve them or giving up all together.

This goes for all situations, especially those of the heart. I like to label things as either being one or another. “Is he a boyfriend? Or an ex?” – “Was that fight my fault or theirs?” We tend to participate in extreme thinking with our various opinions of people’s lives as well, rather than seeing both sides and settling somewhere in the middle. In THEORY the above seem simple to get our heads around, but in reality these in-betweens (in my head) feel inconceivable and difficult to accept.

Luckily, during the last couple of years I have realized that yeah, everything really is more productive and successful if we all just chill out and try and aim for equilibrium instead of one ultimate extreme. Now I know not everything has one answer or outcome, nor is everything either one or the other. Some days will be happy, some sad, some will be a little of both. Arguments do have two sides but they also usually have a little place of understanding where we can meet in the middle and rest our weary heads when we get tired of fighting.

I am starting to realize that settling on a seat in the middle of the see-saw will be more conducive to feeling settled and comfortable than going up and down from the ground to the air every few days. I will achieve more, stress less and be truly happy, happiness meaning being comfortable with the ebbs and flows that I am sure life will always provide me. Recently, a special someone said to me “There is a lot of grey I know but like I said, I’d prefer some grey over no colour at all.”

Seeds of judgement

It is always fun to meet a character who has such narrow criteria of what is “acceptable” their own ego can’t match up, let alone fit in with those around them. Limited knowledge about someone does not warrant judgement. Narcissism and hypocrisy is what I think we have a right to judge people on. He who lives in a house of ignorance should not throw stones. He who sows the seeds of judgement at every turn of the arrow, will inevitably fail in the eyes of all that is real.